when you had more than your fill

the title of this post describes me right now… 

It’s so much so much, that my Father in Heaven, is teaching me.. 

they are so much so much, that I always term it, spiritual indigestion.. 

It’s overwhelming but yet , it spurs me on to love His word and wanna know this Amazing Father!  

Well, well.. Seems like an interesting journey ahead.. With school starting in  a few weeks..

I tried Oil painting during retreat, I had big regrets over it (: , what a funny thing… 

Many ask me , what do i do during my holidays.. so this is the answer

I seek the Lord, as He reveals things I never knew, I spend time, practicing figure drawing, painting, illustrating, reading, cleaning up my study room, reorganize, I’m going redesign space so I have a wonderful place to do my Homework when school start! , I’m obsessed with sketching and drawing little drawings, i wanna do a rainbow typography project and writing posts here (:  My new found LOVE, skateboarding..  Hmm.. 

I thank God for this space, that I can share this wonderful life with people (: 

I have a beautiful quote, i wanna share.. next post ! 

seeya!

til’ i see you

with all I am, I live to see Your Kingdom come

in my heart, I pray You let Your Will be done

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the truth of these 2 lines are deep.. 

I live to see Your kingdom come, I pray You let Your will be done.. 

what does these lines mean? 

When we pray, we form mental images,

things we desire to see , things we want to see happen

If that’s so, how can we say we’re praying Let Your Will be done.. 

It became our very own will, the motive of our own prayers

We’re praying to see something changed (not that’s it bad!) but by the very work of own prayers.. 

we’re no longer dependent on the Most High…

then it would have become glorifying ourselves, because I prayed, God answered..

 

Prayer is an intercession,

prayed with no motives

but out of pure love and compassion

for that friend or issue…

 

Prayer is more than because I prayed, the Lord answered.. 

Prayer is  about Glorifying God, 

His Will be done.. not ours, not our desire.. but His Will.. 

but yet pray in pleading for God’s mercy.. 

- samsam - 

 

Be Amazed..

In my mission trip, the Lord taught me many lessons, this is one of them.. 

I was struggling hard, to think doing big things for God is what He wanted from me.. 

But no, but that very day, all I had do for Him, was just to usher people in.. 

Still I struggled, I wanted to share my testimony, but somehow God works another way round.. 

God is still good (: 

Then, the morning during worship, i cried and cried …

I’ve been seeing a lot of butterflies flying around me.. usually, these are weird (:

Then, the Lord told me.. they are specially for you, each one that was sent near you. I broke down even more.. 

Indeed, there isn’t any God like mine ! 

Well, I asked why all the different things happened.. but He answered

Simply this, ‘ I just want to be with you.’ 

Nothing matters anymore.. That morning, I understood the importance of my very presence to the Lord.. 

Everything is simply changed, I’m glad so! 

When God calls you to do something, I would always think it is huge and heavy.. 

Not really anymore, it’s a new humbling process once more.. :D

Because, doing the exact thing He wants, not more not less. Just enough. 

He will use, what you have given .. but when I’m given thing to be done, I want to give my all for the Lord..

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poof. samsam is suffering indigestion again :/

too much truths, in a day yesterday.. 

I’m pulling my hair, trying to piece everything.. 

I wonder why, at this time… God reveals so much suddenly :/

but samsam is not giving up, but just enjoy the Lord all day :D

that’s the best thing to do in life! 

i did a bad thing yesterday, shopping….. 

Artfriend is like a best friend.. :S

wait for your brothers and sisters

many a times, my life has always been about pursuing the Lord..

keep running and running after Him..

in the picture, there’s has only been me and Him.. 

many a times, this journey with God, I never thought of others.. 

it’s been me all along.. 

during the trip, God showed me a new perspective.. 

samsam, why don’t you help your brothers and sisters run alongside you and help them to run .. 

never have I thought of that, never was I ready in the past to do this..

this showed me a lot, all the good things God gave me, I kept it all for myself.. Hoarding everything..

as how afraid I was to show it to others, because I didn’t like the idea of them being jealous of what I have with God.. 

I rather not share anything, but to keep it.. but nopes, finally i’m out of this shell.. 

My papa in heaven, wants me to share with my brothers and sisters in Christ whatever He has taught and given me.. 

So that they too, can run after Him, they too will fly with Him.. 

how wonderful, what a precious lesson :D

the little girl, is off to bed!

a point i got stuck.

³I thank my God every time I remember you. ⁴In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy ⁵because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, ⁶being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

Philippians 1: 3 – 6

something, I learnt from TAWG (time alone with God)

In this passage, verses 3 and 4 got me stuck… 

loss for words.

What does it takes for Paul to say this, I thank God every time I remember you. 

I looked at it in astonishment, how is that possible, well at least in my life.. 

Secondly, he went on saying, I pray with Joy for them… 

but i realized in the next few verses, Paul carried them in his heart.. 

Paul’s heart, my heart, everyone else’s heart are the same.. 

But why, because Paul simply loved them, good or bad.. 

He loved and had compassion … 

in my heart ring a question, we always say we love one another.. 

but to me, I question myself.. what is then Love One Another? 

i hope i’ll find this answer with daddy God (: 

bounced off! 

 

be a child

 

 A child is always wide awake with wonder. But as we get older we forget that a child’s wonder is nearer the truth than our older knowledge.

Oswald Chambers

i just wanna be a child, seeing the world thru  the eyes of a child and choose to be amazed by the small things God does for me.. it doesn’t have to spectacular.. i still see butterflies.. those who went on the trip with me will understand.. i see them in S’pore.. And I’m so amazed by the Bus 67 .. i was praying God pls stop the traffic light so we can board the bus.. the next moment the bus went off. we crossed the road.. the next bus that came was 67.. I can’t help it but smiled and was really excited.. because God answers prayers in ways you can’t imagine. Be AMAZED! 

None like You

there is none like You

no one else can touch my heart like You do

i could search for all eternity long

and find there is none like You..

 

i’m missing

sabai dee mai? 

aroy mai?

dak dak bai ti ni.. 

pra-jar rat kun mak mak

chan chop aroy mak mak..

shuai mak mak

Chan chi pe sam (:

* I think i’m missing thailand , but yet life still goes on.. 

I await my next trip there to be with these beautiful people.. 

Btw, the above that you may not understand it’s my very limited knowledge of thai.. there’s more than that of course (: 

Khopkunka! I’m going off !

what exactly is LOVE ?

michael jackson’s death, led to an interesting conversation with my sister. 

i was getting a little too much of michael jackson, today i guess. 

then i said, why does his name have to be announced worldwide, yes he is a pop icon. 

no doubt. but why does he deserve to be put up around the world. then, I thought of Jesus. 

He never had any reputation, nor died honorably but a death on the cross for our sins. 

That’s the true love of God, He send His one and only son to die for us. 

The question I have tonight, have we forgotten the reason we become believers or christians.. 

It’s Jesus death on the cross, that we believe in Him, not because He give me good things and  a blessed life. But it was the cross, the blood He shed .. 

well, my sister complained everything about how MJ did all the things he did.. I was irritated.. I told her, enough stop it. I told her this, Do you know that God loves him the way He love us.. 

It’s so easy, to be hypocritical of things, of people. Place judgements on others, things should not be done this way or that way, then u start to look at the person with a different eye. But the very thing God left us in His Word was to love one another, love even your enemies. Yes, loving one another.. I’m still learning. i’m at the tip of the iceberg.. But i know, that is required of me from the Lord. I choose to follow. The next question, my sister asked me was this. I don’t have love, I can’t love them.. dear sister, i’m not here to shame you or what, i just hope that some others reading this will be blessed to learn about the love of God. I said to her, you can’t love with your love.. simply because we are selfish beings,utterly love ourselves only. But only through God’s love, through the overflow of His love, then we can love. 

This very LOVE, i’m talking about is Jesus death on the cross, his full extent of His love. 

this is all i can say, ask the Lord to show you what’s his love is like, He will show you… His love on the cross.. Many months ago, i struggle, why would people cry over that cross.. I dont understand with my heart what it was like, but by knowledge i know. But when I asked the Lord showed.. I understood the love, but again it’s at the tip of an iceberg… my prayer, is that I will never forget it is because of the cross, that made me the way I am today. (:

culture or structures?

now that I’m home. 

i’m utterly honest with myself and my thoughts (:  

one thing we always talk about in the trip is culture and structure. 

Certainly, right now, almost many things are fixed as a culture and structure. 

simply put it this way, everything must fall back on a culture and structure. 

a worship set must flow in this certain way, to bring a high praise. 

but the question is why, is there such a thought in the first place. 

God is new everyday, why do you rely on past experiences how the Lord comes that way, he will do the same..

He is the Creator, sometimes, we just dont want to expect new things from the Lord. 

everyday, He is different and new. I’m saying this, because I’ve seen this side of Him.. everyday

I stand amazed by the things He does :D 

Is culture and structure, the thing we rely on? 

For me, I still think God has more than a culture and structure.. 

I would choose to be a fluid to be used by God 

He flows fluidly, and I have seen enough of culture and structures… 

But will we break out from the cultures and structures and Trust in the Lord 

and have faith than sticking to schedule. 

I’m not saying culture or structure is bad, it is good as a plan.. but do we have to stick to it like super glue. 

I’m against it (:

* i finally decluttered and cleaned my table and the cupboard in my room!  

next is the study!