i miss doodling.

i miss doodling :(

it’s been a real long while, since I did this.

This above piece is gone for good. It’s traveling as an exhibit.

How precious these are to me.

I’ve got a new one which I haven’t quite use yet, only 2 pages.

Gonna start doodling on the train again.

I’m like a student again, I’m picking up things.

Studying hard at Josef Muller Brockmann

Again, thinking of getting another book, Thinking with type : Ellen Lupton.

sigh. my monthly pay always goes to books and magazines.

GENIUS ME, I should start banning myself till I finish reading all the books I have.

rambling night, but yea I’m still as passionate about design since I was 13 years old.

some things never change.

gdnight world.

Beautiful Blank

I figured, I should be writing such things in my personal diary * handwritten one * of course!

I’m so BUSY :( such a bummer. I’m writing lesser these days and tweeting so much. sparks of inspirations.

NAH. Writing will never die on me. It sorts my thoughts in perfect clarity.

A very positive thing is coming right up, but let’s keep it in wraps first! BUBBLING WITH EXCITEMENT really!

Secondly, been up to with serious SILKSCREENing. Gonna start doing it at home.

MORE WORK COMING! Work has been really good! very beautiful.

* In a phase of questioning my motives and even the songs I sing every sunday. Do I mean what I sing, sometimes it’s just not that way. Being pressured to read the bible due to peers or that desire to draw closer to the Father? Yet still having a discipline to read it, I assure you reading the bible for the pure joy of it is rewarding and it becomes like a story the Father is telling and have written just so I know :)

Thought I will share it tonight!

Sigh. I’ll prepare my artwork for another submission tmr. :X late already. At least the forms are settled.

HAVE A WONDERFUL NIGHT, take delight at the words on the image above!

Individual Consumerism

 

tonight, homegroup was a great time.

Truly enjoyed the honest discussion on this thing called the individual consumerism.

Wells, we’re not talking about literal consumerism, could called it fake spirituality maybe.

It’s very much applicable in life really, cause at least that’s how I’m feeling this period of time.

Asking God why this happens to me and that, and why He didn’t answer my prayers. It’s true blue not about any of us. It’s about Him in everything. The idea of individual consumerism is where you go to God and ask for things you want. He can choose to give it to you and choose not to as well. Wells, it just freaking show how selfish I myself can be. Times, where I get impatient with things and frustrated, because I’m not getting the things I want. Thats why I’m irritated usually.

But that’s really not the faith I have when I chose Jesus to be my Savior. I guess growing up, makes you forget many things. That’s my confession, I mean I don’t really have this issue when I’m in my teens. I guess, lesser things and issues to deal with. Being an adult is quite something actually. :O It makes me wonder, what’s my faith based on, it’s to be based on the Word of God which is the Rock which I can stand upon always. On the Father, who first loved me who sent Christ. I know it’s easy to say this, but truly I say Jesus loves. He loves you and me, perhaps it’s a season where you can’t see His hands and face, but be assured He’s there looking at what you are going through. But NEVER do you ever try individual consumerism, asking God to be your problem solver. I know some issues are tough, I’m not asking you not to pray. Pray! Definitely, check the motives from the rock bottom of your heart. Before you do anything.

That’s why, I’ve learnt to enjoy the wee hours in the night with my Savior, with no agenda or motives, just sitting at His feet. The stop, that I hope not to miss every single day. Even for 3 minutes that I can be still and pray, its where I want to be.

:)

 

New Oceans.

 

It’s been a while, I still haven’t figured out my thoughts. I’m at a loss, dreamless. I mean, I completed one of my biggest dreams in life at 24. That’s to get myself to art school, graduate and be a true blue graphic designer/ illustrator. Whatsoever. It has hit that I have genuinely completed this. 2 months into proper work. Every job is tough, you work under someone, ain’t like you’re the boss that you call the time. Some wishful thinking of mine. I’m truly considering new oceans, the oceans I have yet to discover or find. That process of searching, longing to dig deeper for a meaning a thing in life that I can look to as I grow in life. New Oceans. The irony of finding out what I hope to do. Couple of my friends, started their very own initiative. That’s excellent really. But I haven’t find mine. Wells, at least I do know, there’s so much chores at home for me, the first will be clean and pack the room and start living in it properly. I’m still at a loss, what should I do besides working. Everything is going on just find, needs to find some motivation in life to keep it going. Perhaps, I just need a longer period to think about it.

okay, it’s late. gd nite!

life’s a fleet.

passing time, is unbelievable these days.

I don’t do much as before. I’m thinking if bumming was the best days of my life.  :)

Well reality is setting in, the real reality of TIME.

Geez. I hate it when the hours just fly pass me just like this.

Just want to head home everyday, do some reading, TV, family time. Crash.

That’s all about it, but of course not, there’s still little things from chores, errands and everything else.

WORKOUT time, is something I decided to shift out of focus but I can’t anymore.

anyways, its been a wonderful 1 and a half months. Almost half of February is gone.

precious time of my life, don’t slip by too quickly. I’m living everyday to the best I can. :)

(regrets, I don’t want to leave any in my life I choose to live it to my best! )

589th post.

It’s something unpredictable but in the end
It’s right I hope you’ve had the time of your life

okay, finally here.

2012. a new job. a new room. a new life. a new start.

It’s been amazing thus far. tiring.

But enjoying my new job a lot. Learning so much in the job!

I think I could even put this right now, I’m lovin’ my new job, God provided.

It’s a joy. Never imagined I would be a designer.

Now, it’s true and I don’t have give in the style and look of my design.

Well, it simply means, the style of design fits the company and the style of the co. fits me.

same style, sleek design.

I’m thankful.

First time I got chased home by my boss during my first week of work.

Told me to go home early!

It almost never happen in any design firm, I assure you.

so yay!

I’ll write more in this year to com! It’s 589th post already.

It’s been 5 years of writing since 2007.

My first post, also my favourite God Tears.

memories. :)

2012.

2012

It’s a time of rejoicing and of a new year.

There’s always something special when a year crosses to the next, can’t figure it exactly.

Like a new birth to something to new. It’s has been a difficult 2011.

Everyone has their problems to deal with, it’s how you solve and deal with it.

For me in 2011, I gues it was Naiveness.

Too naive, too ready to trust the world, I’ve tasted how scary and dangerous the world is.

There’s one thing that’s for sure.

His Love never fails, never gives up, never runs out on me.

His love overwhelms me and satisfy my soul.

New year, a new journey, new obstacles, but I’m happy.

2011 I conquered lots of fears, and it’ll be so this year.

Gotta run, lots to do still!

one of it is to follow that bible reading plan, to read the entire bible this year with the church! :D

square one.

 

sometimes, the weirdest thing is when you thought you’re out of a place. then you find yourself back there again, it’s like a deja vu. guess I was there, and have done that. I don’t know why God is putting me through this, but I suppose and choose to believe that God knows that I will be able to handle this too.

questions, questions, zillions of questions run through my mind like the speed of lightning.

the midnight closet writings, are the best time for me to write.

I’m not working again :) wells, I’m disappointed and upset about it, yet to get myself together. Soon, I’ll be up and running again. Thought through much, actually I still have no idea what I really want to do. Till today, yes I studied design and all but what’s it, what should I do? Design jobs? I jumped into jobs after I graduate, but I’m also glad I don’t have one now. So that I figure what is in my heart that I should do. FAITH.

I’m gonna have a good long think.

I don’t want to live with regrets that I didn’t get to do something I really wanted. Well’s I have no intention of staying in singapore. Now it’s my choice to start applying into other studios should I even say I am exhausted with singapore studio. Perhaps they’re just not what I’m looking for. Getting some ideas, okay always wanted to work overseas. What should I do God?

this is gonna be a quite a wait.

*disappear*

 

beautiful quote

” To fight is to struggle, endure, withstand, persevere against all odds. The choice may be to fight without loud discontent, but the quiet fight is not entered blind and more than just for the spirit of the fight, it is to fight for a cause. And here, rightly so, it is a fight with hope for greater things to come.”  - Justin Long

knick-knacks.

(Get it here! via Little Drom Store)

thinking of getting some knick knacks? for a special friend and stuff, this is my favourite shop in Singapore thus far. It’s a little hideout I go to, as and when I can find the time. They sell really exquisite and lovely stuff. Frankie Magazine is the other thing I oftenly visit them often for. These wooden iphone cases caught my eyes, beautiful aren’t they? Loved the way how wood naturally captivates my eyes. Still contemplating to get it a not, if there’s no camera behind, would it be what I will want? Question, Question, Question.

Been a little busy this week, I’m cramming my driving lessons as much as I can this week just before I start work on tuesday, where I have to say HI! to the real life and say BYE! to my fun-filled days I have had. Final theory Test on monday, busy busy day. Lots to do, a freelance project on the way. For a friend (:  Branding agency, please don’t be a boring subject for me please, I need to spend quite a period of time with you. I just seriously hope I won’t end up regretting! Excited about my new workspace instead of the office whatever, thinking about what to bring to office. I told my mom about the things I’m bringing, she was like why don’t I bring my travel bag. I looked at her with disbelief.. Like no, that’s so awkward to bring that on the 1st Day of work. Haaaa…

It’s a great day! :)